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Lilies, Birds, and Faith–Tuesday Randomness

May 25, 2010

This morning I sit here at my computer, less than one month from my final REAL paycheck. Only one more month of knowing exactly where my income will originate and when it will be deposited. And only three more weeks of showing up to work for someone else because I think I have to.

It’s a very sobering place to reside. Maybe even a little bit uncomfortable.

Maybe a lot uncomfortable.

But a little bit exciting.

Maybe a lot exciting.

Here’s what I know that I know that I know. Just before spring break, I made a decision to break free. After almost two years of talking about leaving, I finally read the signs, cut the ties, handed in the resignation, stopped trying to figure out how to make something else work, and said  “I’m outta here”. Of course with education, that simply means that summer will mark the end of my services to the organization. The “outta here” gets dragged on for months.

I rationalized that all the signs from God I had been requesting had been quite clear, and that my continuing to ask for signs might result in my being hit “upside the head” with one.

I don’t really want to be hit upside the head with a sign from God. Those sometimes hurt.

With my sweet and ever patient husband on board (at least somewhat), I let it go. After all, what’s the worst that could possibly happen? I could fail miserably and have to go beg someone to let me teach again? Meanwhile our already insane debt load could climb higher and higher and I could bankrupt our family.

No big deal.

I just gotta have faith.

Besides, didn’t Jesus tell us to consider the lilies of the field and the birds of the air? Matthew 6:28 says, “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.” Okay, so there aren’t any birds in that verse. I thought there were.

And I’m thinking his lilies never met up with a good ol’ West Texas hail storm to rip their pretty little dresses right off.

Needless to say, I am down to only one more “steady” paycheck from a tax-payer-funded entity. I am struggling to keep my mind away from fear and onto the positiveness of knowing I made the right choice and my family and I will be provided with everything we need.

I’m just not so sure Visa will get everything it needs.

Or Home Depot.

Or Citibank.

Or GMAC Financial.

My only ace in the hole is a massage therapy license and not nearly enough clientèle to replace my current income. For that matter, I currently have enough steady clients to almost pay the bills at my wellness center.


And actually, I have lots of aces. I have tons of fabulous knowledge and expertise that blesses people every time an opportunity presents itself. I just haven’t quite figured out how to get people in these parts to pay money for what I am offering up.

They call it marketing. I apparently have a weird aversion to it.

I can market the heck out other people’s stuff, yet when it comes to something I am promoting, I seem to get weirded out about it and don’t give it the massive effort it warrants.

So I sit here, typing away, trying to convince myself that I am not a stupid doofus who quit her job with bills to pay and a daughter headed off to college this fall. I sit here telling myself that opportunity is about to explode all around me and my dreams are about to come true. I play the affirmation game telling myself that I am worthy, cared for, and quite capable. I discuss with my goddess brain the fact that I have a ton of skills, information, and talents and that the world is about to knock my door down begging (and paying) for my knowledge.

Hey, God? Do you think you might send a few paying door knockers a bit early so I’ll know you aren’t calling me a stupid doofus, too?

I guess I have some marketing to do. See you later.

8 Comments leave one →
  1. May 25, 2010 6:06 AM

    Wow, good luck. Scary and exciting place to be. I laughed out loud at the lilies of the field meeting a West Texas hail storm. I hope people in “those parts” realize what a treasure they have right in their midst and start utilizing all of that knowledge and skill and power. Now go market yourself!

    • May 25, 2010 7:41 AM

      They will. They just have to know I exist and I rock. Can I just get an agent and be done with it? 😉

      • May 25, 2010 7:46 AM

        Oh, parts of your parts know it, too. I actually had a lady come from the Mineral Wells area last year to attend my BrainGym workshop.

        • May 25, 2010 8:06 AM

          I’ve been to Iowa, North Carolina and Houston to fuel up and fan the flame. People will travel – even to West Texas – if they know about something that is going to fill them up. Toot your horn, woman!

  2. May 25, 2010 6:19 AM

    Hey – look at the bright side – think of the time you’ll have now to build that business! But I know what you mean about marketing your own business – it feels weird. And – you are not a stupid doofus! 🙂

    • May 25, 2010 7:44 AM

      Ah…the time and the freedom. Those are the things that are keeping me from jumping back into the frying pan. I keep thinking about having time to actually “put up” garden. Then I panic and wonder if I’ll have enough income to buy canning supplies.

      I’ve got the dream. I know what I want. At least I think I do. Just gotta figure out how to bring it all together.

      Thanks for not thinking I’m a doofus!

  3. Matt H permalink
    May 25, 2010 8:40 AM

    Marketing!! Ughh!! This is what I have learned about marketing our business. The best marketing tool and really the only one that works well, in small towns anyway, is YOU!! Don’t wait for the people to knock your door down, you go to them and knock thier door down. The best marketing slogan that there is “SEE THE PEOPLE, SEE THE PEOPLE, SEE THE PEOPLE.
    We have done ads in newspapers, internet and other places. But all of those have been really mostly non productive. We run an ad once a month in a local paper, have for the last year or so. Not sure that we have gotten one new client off of it. In the past we spent a lot of money with ads and other stuff, and have found out that the best way to gain new clients is to go to them, knock on thier door and ask for thier business. Yes you will get ran off, you will get the door slammed in your face, but you must go on to the next one, the most important thing is do not get frustrated. A lot of those people that first slammed the door in our faces, are now our clients. A lot of them said No the first time, and then later came back to us. You just must plant the seed, and it will come back to you.
    When I first started, I made it a goal to see, or talk to at least 10 to 15 people a day. Thats 75 people a week, I did this either by knocking on thier door or by calling them. Odds are if you talk to that many people a day, at least one out of that 10 t0 15 will do business with you. So thats 5 each week!! Thats pretty good! It did not always turn out that way each week. But it built our business. Now our best marketing tool is referals (sp) (i can not spell, sorry) anyway!
    Example! We gained a new client about 3 weeks ago, took us 3 trips to get him to sit down and do it! But in the last 3 weeks, he has reffered 3 of his friends to us! We did not give up on him and it has paid off in a HUGE way.
    Anyway, just hang in there, there were times that I thought, what the heck! Nothing seems to be going on, and I just had to get out there and start beating the bushes again. We sometimes beat the bushes for a week or so, and reap the benefits of that for a few weeks, then its time to go back and beat them again. Good Luck!!!

    • May 25, 2010 8:49 AM

      Great advice, Matt. Thanks. I know these things. They just make me crazy. (or maybe I’m just lazy?) Surely not!

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